The Glimmer

So. Failure. And lots of it.

The mafia musical was no go.
Same with ArtsWest.
And now R&J too.

Damn. I can't help but feel the kidney punch to my soul. I talked to my girlfriend about and she was just kinda "That's the biz," about it. Easy for her to say, she was just cast in a show. But at the same time she's been through it too. And much worse than this. I'm just 0 for 3, and probably about to make it 0 for 4.

But here's the thing, we always hold on to The Glimmer. The Glimmer of Hope, I like to call it. It's that glimmer that calls out from a distance. It whispers softly "Maybe, just maybe..." And then it trails off. And it keeps you going. It makes you sign up for auditions and throw yourself into callbacks because maybe, just maybe, you never know what might happen.

With Romeo and Juliet, they said they were going to get back to us pretty quickly. I didn't really think about it all that much at the beggining of the week but then when it neared the weekend it was a recurring thought I couldn't shake. Like a parasite sucking my lifeblood. When the weekend came and went, I couldn't help but expect rejection. But I emailed to inquire and held onto The Glimmer. I was told casting took longer than expected and I should hear back shortly. More than 10 days after I auditioned I found the rejection email waiting in my inbox.

Le sigh. I should've expected that. I kind of did.

As I said before I had 4 opportunities. That leaves one more. It's the longest of the long shots. But, it's also The Glimmer. I'll hold on to that.

Important Lessons in Counting Chickens

Rember that post I had not too long ago about all those opportunities that were popping up? Yeah well... so much for that.

Through a series of avenues I happened to hear that medium-sized house role I was up for already had their callbacks. Needless to say, I wasn't asked to attend. Not that I'm not being considered I guess I divulge a few details. The play was The Dead Guy and it's being performed at ArtsWest. Supposedly the director wanted the cast to skew older than I look. Fair enough. But it would've been nice to know that I was no longer being considered.

I guess I'm still technically up for Romeo and Juliet at Balagan but I'm not holding my breath. It's been about a week since the audition and they said they would get back to us right away. I shot off an email to a couple of people at Balagan and got a reply that said they had just finished casting, it took them longer than expected, and I should hear something pretty soon. It's a glimmer of hope. Not a spectacularly bright glimmer though.

I think I will gun for this Rep role though. It's a bit of a longshot but it's worth. It's the metaphoric Hail_Mary, only I'm throwing the ball towards the start of the first quarter. Maybe even on third down.

Call me over-eager.