The Glimmer

So. Failure. And lots of it.

The mafia musical was no go.
Same with ArtsWest.
And now R&J too.

Damn. I can't help but feel the kidney punch to my soul. I talked to my girlfriend about and she was just kinda "That's the biz," about it. Easy for her to say, she was just cast in a show. But at the same time she's been through it too. And much worse than this. I'm just 0 for 3, and probably about to make it 0 for 4.

But here's the thing, we always hold on to The Glimmer. The Glimmer of Hope, I like to call it. It's that glimmer that calls out from a distance. It whispers softly "Maybe, just maybe..." And then it trails off. And it keeps you going. It makes you sign up for auditions and throw yourself into callbacks because maybe, just maybe, you never know what might happen.

With Romeo and Juliet, they said they were going to get back to us pretty quickly. I didn't really think about it all that much at the beggining of the week but then when it neared the weekend it was a recurring thought I couldn't shake. Like a parasite sucking my lifeblood. When the weekend came and went, I couldn't help but expect rejection. But I emailed to inquire and held onto The Glimmer. I was told casting took longer than expected and I should hear back shortly. More than 10 days after I auditioned I found the rejection email waiting in my inbox.

Le sigh. I should've expected that. I kind of did.

As I said before I had 4 opportunities. That leaves one more. It's the longest of the long shots. But, it's also The Glimmer. I'll hold on to that.